Earlier this week, I wrote in an email to Bea, “I want to stay home, have a nice quiet simple meal with Ryan and Claire. Be thankful with them, for the relationship the three of us have. That’s what I really want to do right now.”
I said it was impossible, not something I could do, because I had to go to my parent’s. Knowing I was planning to call off sick for the Christmas party made it even more important that I go to Thanksgiving.
Wednesday, after my therapy session, I came home, and packed up my little car. Kat and I headed out. The closer I got to my parents, the more anxious I became.
As we neared the halfway point, my heart was beating way too fast, I was having trouble breathing, I kept having to remind myself where I was, I was afraid every car that passed us was full of people who were going to hurt us; I was a mess. I was sure I was going to have to text Bea and beg her to call me to talk me down, help me ground myself, because I could not do it.
Then, my check engine light started to flash. And my car started to shake. I reacted horribly, as if it were a life or death situation. I called hubby in a panic.
“Get off the highway, Alice. I will come get you, and have Chevy roadside assistance come get the car.” Hubby spoke to me in that direct, Alice is gone and acting like a loon again voice.
I got off the highway. Chevy towed my car to the dealership, and hubby came and got Kat and I.
I stayed home for Thanksgiving. I cooked a simple dinner; homemade chicken pot pie from scratch, and home made apple crisp (because we has our mini thanksgiving meal on Monday night). We had a nice, relaxing day, where no one was fake, even thought that meant some of my mad leaked out and Kat got whiny and Hubby withdrew and went into neat freak mode. We were thankful with and for eachother. We snuggled after dinner, and were grateful to be together. It has been the most perfect Thanksgiving ever.
(Minus the texts and guilt my mother has induced in me….but that’s another post, another day!)
I’m so thankful to have this group of wonderful people in “blog-land”, and for all my readers! Happy Thanksgiving!!! 🙂