The teenage part of me is out in full force today. I’ve been emailing with Bea for the better part of the day, about how snarky I feel and how scared the little girl is of the snarky teenager. Bea suggested that the teen part of me needs to know that she will accept her, that I maybe need to test her limits; that this is all about trust. So I gave in and sent her the snarky email I had sitting in my trash folder– my first response to her email (response to my Brave email) this morning. And now I’m terrified. I need support. So here I am. Eeeeek.
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Bless you, that sounds nerve wracking. Sending you all the hugs ❤
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Thank you……more below on accident.
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Supporting you! xx
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Thank you….more below on accident…oops….
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Thank you. I am freaking out. I am so afraid she will just give up on me after this. She said she would write back. She has said she won’t leave, and that she can’t imagine judging me. I’m trying to hang on to that.
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You got this, Alice. I know you can comfort the little girl, and remind her just how supportive Bea is. I know it is hard to wait out those awful feelings, but you totally will.
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Thank you. She did come through and she wasn’t at all upset. Xx
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It was very brave of you to send the email! I think that you can trust Bea to take the email in the right context.
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Thank you for calling me brave. She did take it in the right context. You were right. Xx
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ive been in this position before too. If shes a good therapist shell know how to react. Clearly your teen self needs a voice. good luck!
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Thank you. She did know how to react. She wanted to hear what the teen part of me had to say. She actually listened and responded in a very real and honest way.
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I love this word and I’ve never known anyone but you that uses it. But I so feel this way a lot of the time. I remember one of the first posts I read of yours, I believe it was a teenage moment in the restaurant with your hubby. Snarky is okay and Bea will still be there for you. She is very patient.
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Haha. I so love the word…but I hate it when I feel and act snarky. And, yes, I did have the teen moment in the restaurant. I can not believe you remember that! I am getting more comfortable with snarky, and do believe Bea accepts it. Xx
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I think I started reading your blog around the time you had your restaurant moment.
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