I’m glad you are here. I’m honored that you, or anyone else, would take time out of your lives to read something I have written.
This blog is meant to be an honest look at my life. That means that, at times, it could be very triggering for some of you to read. I may be posting about sex, sexual abuse, physical abuse in a relationship, eating disorders, cutting, suicide, anxiety, picking at the skin around my nails/on my fingers, among other random things. I will try my best to post warnings at the top of a blog post, as well as to put triggering material in italics, and to tag posts so that potential readers can know what they can expect to be reading about. That being said, I am not perfect, and I can not guarantee that I will manage to catch everything that may trigger everyone. Please read with caution.
Falling down the rabbit hole 
Kudos for your honesty. I applaud you. Secrets are only ‘secrets’ when they are kept to yourself. You are courageous in my opinion!
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Thank you. I believe that some “secrets” are never meant to be kept, and these are secrets that need to be told.
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I’ve just started following your blog and I need to go back and read from the beginning. I find your blog interesting, intriguing, inspiring and well written.
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Wow. Thank you, so much. That is a lot of really nice things you just said….I’m always surprised when people find what I write interesting. Thank you for your kind words. 🙂
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I stumbled on you blog through a mutual blogger. I share much of what you are going through and have found many things to help combat my PTSD. . I understand what you are feeling. My blog is called Out of the Rabbit Hole. ( How weird right?) I hope you will stop by and visit.
http://jbartell2013.wordpress.com/
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Hi, Jane. Very weird, in a good way. 🙂 I will definitely stop by!
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Hi Alice- I was having the worst time last night, struggling to tell my boyfriend that I have a sense of impending doom, and when we said goodnight and rang off I started to read your blog. Thank you. I woke up this morning feeling better and realising I need to try and talk about what I’m really feeling with the people I trust, and partly that yesterday was just a bad day. Thank you for writing so honestly- I feel a lot like you feel in therapy but I act like I have it all together and I’m fine. Maybe I need to learn from you, you are doing so well. X
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Hi. I’m glad my blog helped you. I’m learning this lesson very slowly, but its okay to not have it all together. 😊 I hope today is a better day today for you, and that you are able to share some of what you are feeling with those you trust. xx
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Thanks Alice- I reached crisis point yesterday and managed to let those closest to me know that I was that low. I have a week off work now, which is good as without it I think I’d end up back in hospital again. Your blog was the tipping point in being able to realise that I needed help again, so thank you for that xx
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I am very glad you managed to talk to those closest to you and let them know you werent okay. That was very brave of you. Needing help isn’t a bad thing– being human means that at one time or another, we will all need help. Take care and be kind to yourself. xx
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Thank you for your blog; thank you for writing such painfully honest posts. I’m trying to find a word bigger than just “thank you” as it doesn’t quite convey the magnitude of what I’m feeling. One of the toughest things for me after CSA was the feeling of being alone in the experience and the subsequent struggles. Through your words, you’ve made me feel a lot less alone. Your blog is inspiring xxx
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Wow. Thank you. I’m sorry for what happened to you, and I am sorry you have felt so alone. There are so many people out there, feeling just like you– and me. I am really grateful to know my words have helped you feel less alone. Xx
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Alice, I have now completed reading your blog. I am officially up to date and look forward to reading everything else you share regarding your journey. I found your blog approx. 7-8months ago and was struck by your candidness, honesty and your ability to articulate all the cognitive dissonance that goes on in our heads in and out of therapy. You have helped me so much in finding my voice in my own therapy through emails. I too am more comfortable using emails to get my thoughts out, but it never had occurred to me till I read your blog. We started around the same time and are becoming “aware” and “insightful” of our maladaptive patterns at the same time but you’ve had the courage to share it all and by doing so have helped me tremendously. Thanks for sharing your gift.
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Thank you for reading! I can’t believe you have read the entire thing– wow! I feel really honored. Thank you for saying I helped you find your voice in therapy, and that i have helped you by sharing my story and journey on this blog. That is what I wanted to do when i started this blog; to help others not be alone, to tell the truth of what life is really like after sexual abuse and with therapy and PTSD.
I wish you so much healing and courage and luck in your journey. Xx
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Thank you for your blog and for sharing. It’s so important — that vital connection
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Hi Alice,
You’ve been blogging for awhile so you probably already have one but I nominated you for a Liebster Award.
Thank you so much for following along with me and posting your words of support. It always means a lot and this is my way to return the support to you.
No pressure to accept but you deserve it!!
Kerry
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Hi Kerry, thank you for this. 💟
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